My Secret Psychic Life

“I don’t walk around going, “Hey I communicate with people that have died.” It’s not something that’s a common occupation that you talk about.” – Theresa Caputo

“Action indeed is the sole medium of expression for ethics.” – Jane Addams

I have been addicted to watching episodes of Long Island Medium.  I find them on YouTube and record them with my DVR and if too many days go by without LIM in my life, I start to miss it enough to feel the loss.  I think the reason for my fascination is because Theresa is a great example of how the ability to channel spirit can be realized to the highest potential and thus becomes a gift.  Theresa is like an olympic athlete of mediums.   I am especially inspired because Theresa is a regular suburban mom, a practicing Catholic in fact,  who only discovered midlife that the anxiety she often felt was actually her gift lying latent within her and rearing its energetic head to bemoan its disuse.  At the time she realized she was a medium she had two kids in elementary school, a husband who worked at a local bike shop, and she was working at a local oil company as an inventory control person.  Somehow, from this point on, she developed her ability and has become a full-time medium.  Her skills are so amazing that she now has a hit Reality TV show and thousands of Americans are awed by her loud personality, her chutzpah when it comes to approaching strangers, and the accuracy of the messages she channels.

I have been conflicted about my ability to channel spirit for many years now.  There have been periods of time when I’ve read countless books written by other mediums to see if I am experiencing anything like what they experienced.  There have been times when I’ve openly asked Spirit to help me develop my gift – if I’m meant to use it – and then reacted to their efforts with terror.  For example, 8 years ago I told Spirit that I’m ready and that to please teach me, and that if they appeared to me that night I would take it as a sign.  That night, I awoke at 3:15 am and saw (so cliche) a woman in a white dress (I know) at the foot of my bed.  It was so clear, that I immediately let out a bloodcurdling scream that could literally wake the dead, but only woke my husband.  She was gone in an instant.  It was a terrifying experience.  I decided I didn’t have the cajones to realize my ability and I set the whole medium thing aside for several years.  Until now, I’ve never been the one in control of this ability – it’s as though I’ve been an unfortunate recipient of mostly middle of the night spirits.  What fascinates me about Theresa is that she just starts channelling in broad daylight any ole time!  And then a few days ago, for the first time ever, it happened to me too. Read more…

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“Today more people believe in UFOs than believe that Social Security will take care of their retirement.” – Scott Cook

[There is a war-cry in the distance.] Emmet Fitz-Hume: “Was that me?” – Spies Like Us, movie

Every once in a while I read over the blog and think, “we really need a little levity here!”  All this talk about self-empowerment, meditation, meaning of life, existence of God…it’s all so serious.  And really, I do believe that our angels and spirit guides want us to have fun!  They want joy and laughter and silliness too to be a part of our experience here on earth.   So, let’s talk aliens.

I really don’t know if I am a believer in alien visitations or not.  I mean, there are plenty of reason to wonder; intricate crop circles that appear within minutes, photos of strange objects flying through the air, conspiracy theories about government cover-ups (like Area 51), personal accounts of sightings or abductions, old paintings with UFOs in them, heck, even the bible’s opening to Ezekiel is strangely akin to a UFO experience.   But still, something tells me if aliens were visiting this earth, we’d have seen their ships in space (I mean, we’ve been hanging out there for the past 50 years).  I did see a special on TV about how several astronauts have documented seeing strange flying aircraft coming and going from earth which do appear on radar, but again, part of me wonders: were they oxygen deprived at the time?  I am fascinated by the idea, but still hesitant to be a believer.  I can tell you this: if I were the President and found out that UFOs are real, I probably would not tell the public.  Hell, if they’ve been coming and going for forever and haven’t annihilated us yet, then why worry everyone?  Well, anypoos, I can’t really comment on all of these above notions…but I can tell you about 3 UFO sightings experienced by close friends of mine (lucid, normal people who would think this blog o’ mine was waaay out there…but they claim to have seen UFOs).  I have no reason to believe they are not telling the truth. Read more…

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“Your mind is your instrument.  Learn to be its master and not its slave.” – Remez Sasson

“Meditation has only one meaning, and that is going beyond the mind and becoming a witness. In your witnessing is the miracle — the whole mystery of life.” – Osho Rajneesh

7 Facts about meditation:

1) You don’t have to wear all white.  2) You don’t have to sit cross legged.  3) You don’t have to hold your fingers in mudras. 4) You don’t have to recite mantras. 5) Meditating will improve your life. 6) Meditation heightens your intuition. 7) Meditation will help you connect with Spirit.

If anything, the endless photos of people dressed in white and sitting cross-legged while holding their fingers together is the reason, I would argue, that most people don’t want to try meditation.  It looks like something vegetarians, stringy-lean yoga people and rich celebrities do.  But if you’ve read my previous post and have a better idea of what meditation can be like, then maybe you’ve tried it and are ready to take it to the next level.  If so, then this post will attempt to explain why hard core meditators do sometimes wear white, sit cross-legged, hold their fingers in mudras and occasionally, even recite mantras.  It doesn’t mean you need to do these to meditate, but you’ll at least know what they are meant to achieve in case you want to test their effectiveness.  And finally, I will tell you about how meditation has been the most effective tool I’ve used to heighten my intuition and connect with Spirit. Read more…

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“Thus meditating you will no longer strive to build yourself up in your prejudices, but, forgetting self, you will remember only that you are seeking the Truth.” – James Allen

“Meditation is the tongue of the soul and the language of our spirit.” – Jeremy Taylor (clergyman, writer and Bishop 1613-1667)

Have you ever felt absolute blissful peace?  Maybe while lying down outside with the sun warming you?  Or perhaps by lapping waters dancing with sunlight?  Or maybe even – wait for it – post-orgasm, as you lie spent and jello’d by connection and the buzz of momentary abandon?  It’s usually fleeting and ungraspable, but palpable all the same.  You feel bigger than yourself.  You feel safe.  You feel warmed by love.  You feel happy.  You feel calm.   And if you’ve felt this, then you know how meditation feels too, even if you’ve never done it.

No one taught me how to meditate.  I started to do my own version of it, intuitively.  Then, a couple of weeks ago, I saw a special on OWN where Oprah highlighted transcendental meditation (TM) and a whole town of people who practice it daily out in the breadbasket of America.  From what I can tell, what I started to do on my own is pretty much the same thing.  And yes, when you do it, you feel the way I described above.  Every time.  For way longer than a moment.  People from every background practice it.  Unanimously, they say that meditation changed their lives.  So, if your interest is piqued even in the slightest, please read on.  You don’t need to shave your head or your religion, there are no togas involved, and best of all, no diet or exercise either! Read more…

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“From abundance springs satiety.” – Titus Livius

“Not what we have But what we enjoy, constitutes our abundance.” – John Petit-Senn

There are plenty of books out there about abundance.  When The Secret became a sensation a few years back it launched the revival of myriad theories on how to manifest your way to wealth by picturing yourself laden with money and prized possessions.  With the current recession and now the European debt crisis, it’s amazing how quiet it’s gotten out there where Bustin’ Loose From the Money Game is concerned.  For me personally, recession or no, this is always the leanest time of the year as a self-employed bird.  My winter nut is almost chewed to the bone and the spring hasn’t sprung enough for me not to feel hungry.   Recession or not, I begin to feel like a loser and a failure.  A poor loser and failure.  So, it would seem that this would be the best time of year to talk about abundance and manifestation, because if you can talk about it when you ain’t really got it (materially, anyway), then you definitely know something real about it.

Every book that deals with improving your life, whether materially, spiritually or psychologically, will ultimately ask you to Read more…

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“People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are.  I don’t believe in circumstances.  The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can’t find them, make them.” – George Bernard Shaw

“Age wrinkles the body.  Quitting wrinkles the soul.” – Douglas McArthur

In December of 2010 I received a cryptic message during meditation.  My vision was of a pyramid with an eye over it (much like the symbol on a US dollar, only the eye was separate from the pyramid and not part of it).  Then I received the line, “I am the Alpha and the Omega,”  followed by images of a retreat center.  I had been searching for a teacher, mentor, and psychic development course for months at this point and had recently upped the ante in this regard.  I felt the message was related to this quest,  so I opened up my laptop and started googling Alpha, Omega, Eye of Providence and so on.  Then what should appear onscreen but the Omega Institute and right there, on the home page, was a course called Psychic Boot Camp!  The course was taught by a famous psychic and would cover all kinds of introductory psychic topics in a jam-packed week of instruction.  Up until this point I had purchased many a card deck to work with, but the only one I favored was a beautiful deck created by the very same woman who was teaching the class, which is how I knew of her.   Otherwise, I didn’t know who she was or what she was about.  But in that moment, I knew it was a sign and when I asked my guides, “Should I take this course?” I received a strong and instant exuberant ‘Yes!’ in response.  Then I drew a card from The Psychic Tarot and got the Wisdom card, which states, ‘When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.’  Because I am a mere mortal (thick-headed, skeptical, even doubting), I actually asked the question of my guides over and over again for several weeks, plus talked to my BFF and my mom and agonized before signing up and buying my ticket to…wait for it…Costa Rica, where the course was held.  To-date, it has been the best course I’ve taken, although there were definitely some moments where I felt some confusion and disappointment.

First off, I really like Read more…

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“If you want a happy ending, that depends, of course, on where you stop your story.” – Orson Welles

“The universe is made mostly of dark matter and dark energy, and we don’t know what either of them is.” – Saul Perlmutter 

I swear to God this is true.  It is so ridiculous, but it really did happen.  To me.

I’ve been having these killer headaches lately, even migraines.  Never had them before, but now I’m plagued by them.  The other week I was captive in the dark silence of my basement for about four days when I realized my neck and shoulders were so tense that there was no way the headache would ease without relaxing some of the gridlock.  So, I phone my local massage center at 2 o’clock on Friday afternoon and ask if they have anyone available to massage me before they close at 5.  Miracle of miracles, they do.  I don’t even ask who the masseuse is (usually I request a female), I just head over.  The moment I walk in the doors and set eyes on the guy who is going to massage me, my intuitive alarm bells go off.  Literally, my first thought is ‘this guy is a sex offender.’  He’s short, bullish and hairy and has a creepy stare.  I immediately excuse myself to use the restroom and while in there I pace back and forth, trying to decide what to do.  Should I just leave?  I use this place all the time, I don’t want to have to not come back here ever again, it’s 5 minutes from my house!  But can I handle having That Guy put his hands all over me?  This headache is killing me.  I can’t think straight.  I decide I need to relax more than ever and I’ll just keep my eyes closed and imagine myself with a Nice Lady.  I mean, what can he do when the room is 5 feet from the front desk and I can scream for help if I need to?

One word.  Lomilomi.  Remember that scene in Meet the Fockers where Barbara Streisand is riding Robert De Niro like Seabiscuit?  Not too far off from what happened to me that Friday, really.  I was engulfed in his creepy sexual energy and all manner of pleasurable discomfort ensued. Read more…

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This above all: to thine own self be true… - Shakespeare

Never stay up on the barren heights of cleverness, but come down into the green valleys of silliness. – Ludwig Wittgenstein

So, last Monday night I found myself back in the same basement of the same metaphysical chapel where my Saturday humiliation took place (see previous post).  This time, I was at a Beginners’ Guides & Teachers Circle that I can honestly say my own guides arranged.  That is to say, I knew about the circle but didn’t sign up for it.  Turns out, my father-in-law (who has never attended this chapel and lives an hour away) had signed himself and my mother-in-law up for it and mentioned this to my husband.  My hubby responds that I’ve taken classes there and his dad then asks to talk to me about it.  During our conversation I tell him that maybe I’ll come with him to the class and check it out.  After hanging up the phone I think about it for a minute and decide that I don’t feel a burning need to go back to the scene of the grime (heh, heh), so I tell my guides, “Listen.  If you want me to go to this class, you’ll have to take care of everything yourselves, because I’m not sticking my neck out for this.”  Turns out that my husband (who is out of town for work), anticipating that I would be attending a Buddhist meditation that Monday night (I had signed up for 3 weeks of Monday night Buddhist meditation, but after the first one decided not to go back), had hired a sitter for me.  I had forgotten to cancel her.  Then my mother-in-law decided not to go to the circle after all and suddenly I had a ticket, a sitter and even a ride.  So, my father-in-law picked me up and off we went to the circle.  And to quote Dr. Seuss, “Oh, the people you’ll meet.”  Read more…

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The better part of the last 18 months I have searched for a teacher or mentor and have been disappointed in that search.  I found would-be teachers or mentors and asked for their help, unsuccessfully.  I discovered a few confused people that some would call charlatans.  And in my personal and work life both, I experienced a rise in criticism and hostility directed at me, which added to my sense of not belonging and standing alone.  After last week’s meditation and channelling experiences (I attended three classes, see previous post and following post) I came to understand something very important.  I am the teacher.  I have the knowledge.  I have the understanding and the tools.  I don’t need a teacher or a mentor beyond what I have in my guides and in the lessons I learn from the people I meet.  They are all teachers and mentors, if not by title then at least by design.  And this is true for all of us.

This is true for all of us.

We have an inner light and while it may burn dim at times, it is inside us nevertheless.  When we step into our light, own it, expose ourselves in it and then fuel it, we serve our highest potential.  And when we serve our highest potential, we serve God.  If God is light, then allowing our own light to shine (when we are children of God) is to be brave and show our faith, for what greater confidence can we show in God than to say, “God wants me to shine and so I will.”

Usually I write stories and provide all kinds of links and resources to illustrate my point.  Today, there are no such bells and whistles.  Only this reminder:  Shine!

and here’s a fun song to inspire you in this first step towards being a lightworker: Shine by Black Gold: Shine

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“Man will find his own structured words, which will transfigure his into immortal.” – Toba Beta

“Albus, do you really think it safe, leaving him with these people? I’ve watched them all day. They’re the worst sort of Muggles imaginable.” – Professor McGonagall

Queenie Nixon transfiguration

From time to time I look for psychic-y type classes to take and this past week I found a class offered locally that piqued my interest.  It was advertised as a class about Transfiguration, where students would learn all about the subject and also how to experience the phenomenon.  I signed up for the class early in the week and paid online, but didn’t receive a confirmation or instructions for where the class was to be held.  Since the class was offered through the local metaphysical chapel, I decided to just show up with enough time to look for it.  I found it in the basement of the church and there was a healthy turnout, with every chair save one filled with eager bodies.  I sat in the last open chair in the circle and begin to chat with a lovely woman beside me.  The class started late in order to give stragglers time to arrive before shutting the door and drawing a curtain across it.  The instructor, an exuberant  man, announced that lateness really upsets him and that he arrives everywhere early, it’s his german heritage and commitment to structure and discipline.  Then, the class began.

The first thing the instructor does is to stress that this class is a class about learning the how and whys of transfiguration and is not a two hour workshop for actually transfiguring, so if anyone is disappointed or misunderstood the class description, he would not be upset if they left.  No one leaves.  The instructor then begins to talk about how our ectoplasm Read more…

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